Reflections For Life

Imperative Ministries

I stopped by the Imperative Ministries podcast for another deep spiritual conversation. Imperative Ministries is a Christian podcast that is about using the divine word of the gospel to heal our spiritual wounds. It was a privilege for me to have the opportunity to share my personal reflections for life through the show. The host, Michael McIlwain, began by introducing me. He also quoted a verse from the book that spoke to him the most because he could relate to it from his own past experiences.

"This book helped me heal from being broken by the choices I made that were embedded in my memories of past failures and disappointments...."

~ The Epitome of Kimmy: Accept & Embrace It All

Preface

Reflections For Life

I began with a brief overview of my journey from being abandoned and how my foundation with the scripture helped me go through the challenges and obstacles of my life from an early age. As a child, I remember saying a simple prayer and being miraculously healed from my intellectual disability. I began to excel in school and never had to go to special classes any more. This is my testimony to the power of a child’s prayer and how faith that is the size of a mustard seed can make a huge difference.

But I still went through this stage in which I felt like I had no one to talk to and could not voice my opinion. My life changed drastically after I became pregnant at an early age and my adopted parents found out. I had to reflect on my journey, accept my mistakes and my new reality. I had to understand that no matter what I was going through, and regardless of my mistakes and flaws, I am still a gift from God and a child of God who will love and accept me. People said I would never read or write effectively. They said I would be more likey to abuse my children or give them away. But I did not let these challenges prevent me from getting a degree. I eventually had to get my diploma and move on with my life. So the book covers my journey of not giving up, not giving in and not being a statistic.

Resilience, Honesty & Openness

The host brought up how some people had been sexually abused by church members or family and how we are not doing enough to help people who are going through these things. Some people never recover from these kinds of experiences but I was able to beat the odds and share my story today. The host asked me to talk about how broken family members can be harmful to children and how children need to be loved the way God wants them to be loved.

I believe that it all starts with the foundation. Children are a gift from God and there is a responsibility that we have as adults to help them see and understand that they have a purpose filled life journey that is unique and precious. Let us raise them with the fundamentals that they need to grow and blossom. We are all in this human race together. No one is here alone, we are here to help one another. For me it was my godmother who was there to support me even though I still yearned for my birth mother who abandoned me. I had to learn to embrace this new figure who God had placed in my life to play that motherly role.

Self-Care & Positivity

The host also asked what exercises I do for self care and If I was able to seek counseling and therapy. I am very mindful of what I put in my physical body. I try to eat as healthy as I can. But spiritually I would pray, listen to motivational speakers and feed my spirit with the scripture. I am very mindful of what I am around. I try to make better choices for my mind and spirit and stay away from negative energy. Your spirit is just as important as your physical body. It all starts with you and your reflections for life. It all starts from within.

I made a choice that I never wanted to be bitter or fill my life with hate. When you make that choice, that is when change comes. I had to embrace my flaws and how I was created. At first my self-esteem was very low, I had anxiety issues and I tended to attach to abusive relationships. Eventually I had to take a stand that this is not me and I had to make a choice to find assistance and help. That is when I found a therapist who God sent to help me reflect on my life and uncover the patterns that lay hidden beneath the surface. I had a therapist talk me through writing this book and I had to learn from and reflect on my past in order to heal and move on.

Below is the full interview on Imperative ministries in video if you prefer to watch it. You can also find it on Apple podcasts.

Thanks for watching. If you enjoyed this discussion then you may also like my previous one on Straight Talk With Dean & Mark or Professor of Perseverance.