A Choice To Change Your Life

I am an inspirational speaker, who is very passionate about inspiring both women and men, and I’m just loving the journey that God has me on. Listen to a recent interview on Ms. V The Storyteller Podcast. A show for anyone who has lost their voice and wants to get it back. It features personal stories that will make you laugh, cry, think, heal, and in some cases, propel you into making a choice to change your life for the better.

In this episode, I chose to talk about trauma and losing our voice. Similar to a Past interview with Katrina Garrett where she spoke about how she lost her voice from fear of rejection and they spoke about the journey of finding your full voice and using it for God. I loved that episode and it reminded me of the silent cry that I lived through that was portrayed through my memoir.

Losing My Voice

I believe in stories. I believe stories are what connect us.

~ Ms V

The host asked if there was a story of what happened in my life that had me feeling like I lost a part of my voice.

It was the abandonment from being separated from my mother and father at a very young age. That abandonment and rejection shut me down. I wondered what I could say to anyone that could hear me. It wasn’t talked about, I was just dropped off with my paternal aunt. Even at that young age, I felt like I built this wall and shut down. I started seeking relationships in which I hoped that they will fight for me and be my voice. If they failed me then it would put me in a negative mental spiral.

The host commented on how my situation was very unique, compared to previous guests on the show. She asked me what it was like to grow up in this situation in which I lost my voice completely.

It was very hard, God allowed different angels to come in different seasons of my life to grant me what I yearned for. I remembered my resource teacher as a child who showed me that she would never give up on me. I remembered being bullied and I didn’t want to go to recess and I felt like I could speak to her about it even though I had no one else to talk to.

Reflecting on God

The host remembered her childhood as well when she was being physically bullied in high school. Her mom kept noticing that something was wrong and was there to protect her. She asked me to reflect on the time in my life when I felt like I can’t live like this anymore.

After years of toxic relationships that were physically and mentally abusive, the repeated cycle finally came to an end after I gave it all to God and believed that it had to stop. At this point, the foundations were broken and I had hit rock bottom. The last relationship was the worst one and I made a decision that it has to stop and it has to begin with me.