Reflecting About Life with Nina Perez

Reflecting About Life

It was an honor and a privilege to be invited to share my story on Straight Talk, No Sugar Added with Nina Perez, a show to challenge and transform your thinking. It’s about honestly reflecting about life and transforming your mind for the better. I started by giving a brief intro of myself. Every day I wake up trying to understand and know me for who I am. As well as achieve the best potential that I can. I love that I am challenging myself to do different things and stick to those things. I believe that it all starts with determination.

The host brought up the book and how I have been through a lot in life. When you have so much that you have been through, you can either let it destroy you or use it as a foundation to make you stronger. I just celebrated my 48th birthday and I had to let go of these unhealthy relationships, habits, patterns and turmoil. I never had hatred towards others in my heart because I was instilled with God’s love by my adopted dad from the age of 5. But I always had that inner feeling of abandonment and rejection that I had to let go.

The host spoke about her own traumatic past and letting go of the anger and resentment towards her step father who was her child molester. There is a freedom that comes with letting go but it is not easy, there is a process.

With my child molester, I felt never worthy and my self-esteem was tarnished. So releasing my story allowed me to open up and to acknowledge that I am still a gift from God, I was created in love and I am worthy of love.

My Foundation

When reflecting on life the host asked me to speak on my earlier days as a child.

The picture on my book cover is the only picture I had from my childhood at 6yrs old. I was dropped off by my dad after a very bad physical altercation between my parents. Through my book, I bring my readers to see it from the perspective of a little child’s mind. There were so many things that I had to break free from. From feelings of abandonment to disappointment. I was initially misdiagnosed with mild retardation but it was actually PTSD I suffered from because I was going through a lot of trauma from an early age.

My foundation was built on my close relationship with my adopted dad who thought me the scripture and I watched him develop a deeper relationship with Christ. He taught me that God loved me even more than he did and would never leave me. This made me feel like I was never alone. The host spoke about the importance of having that one person to love you even if no one loves you. That is such a powerful thing to have. For the host it was her grandfather who loved her even if she didn’t have a father in her life. For me it was my adopted-dad. I needed that balance, that foundation which was built on his relationship with me even though I always yearned for a relationship with my biological mom.